first three days

first three days of settling in...
it feels totally like SEP so far... just exploring the places, getting the basic stuff like water, detergent, toiletries, food, toilet paper, bank account...

so far 0.5 day to setup bank account, 1 day of touring... not much completed. though thanks to Kate (and our project team heads), i got two programming (methodology?) books to read, and be tested for/submit a summary, within a week. Which is also due to H1N1 (they call it SI - swine influenza here), that I need to be quarantined.

well, good news in a sort of way, otherwise i would have had to start work immediately. One maplestory children picture book for myself, because i seriously need to resume studying korean. this place is totally like Japan, and everything is the same as before, except I don't f**king understand korean. I can't even get the TV up and running by myself. shit. I need to get motivated, and i need to trick myself to study.

And all this is before i start work... before i get to meet all the colleagues and talk to them in Korean. Which is impossible for me, at the state of only being able to say yes/no/goodbye/thank you/sorry. And I heard my mentor is starting to learn English for me. Haha it will be a quackquack-cockadoo situation very soon. f**k. At least Vincent's mentor went to California to learn English before. dammit.

And there's a relationship issue that I'm keeping somewhere at the back of my mind, which Vincent terms "an open relationship". Which I don't know how to handle... Logically and plainly speaking, what she needs right now in her stage of life is someone to study with her, play with her... enjoy her uni life. Which i can't really do...   I need to polish my survival skills - to be able to eat, sleep, interact, commute, communication, work happily in office/home, and make as much friends as possible - which any person who went on exchange knows how important this is.

I need to step out of myself right now, to put on full power to my sluttiness and lameness and joker and craziness (which I have pretty much confidence in) - the life that I choose to lead... the crazy, full-throttle, ever-changing life. How can I make her happy, how can I make everyone happy? I don't know the answer...

uverworld~ D-tecnolife
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8JKD-lh68g4


癒えない　痛み　悲しみで　キズついた　君
もう笑えないなんて　人嫌いなんて　言葉そう言わないで
見えない未来に起こる事　全てに意味があるから
今はそのままでいい　きっと気付ける　時が来るだろう

How can I see the meaning of life...